Wednesday, April 5, 2017

Back to Reality

It's been quite a while since my last post.  I was away for a month and it was spectacular.  I was not sure what it would be like to just relax and have no deadlines, no structure, no demands on my time.  Well, I have to say, I loved it!  My husband loved it too and that was a huge surprise.  He is such a workaholic but found he liked to sleep in, read, take our dog for many walks a day, go to the beach and just hang out with me.  I did bring my paints and did some work.  Then back to reality, which isn't all that bad,  just busy again.  The first week home I was so disoriented that I really could not fully function.  It's nice to just let go and float for a while.  It's pleasant to not feel guilty because you are not being productive.  It's satisfying to just be.  I will admit there were a few times when I was a bit bored but mostly, I just felt free.  I still am feeling some of this and have given myself permission to have days to myself to do whatever suits me.  I began working on a series of cityscapes just before leaving and have thoroughly enjoyed this new endeavor.   They are kind of funky and folk artsy.  I am working in different sizes and using many color palettes.   Here is one of them:

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Tuesday, February 7, 2017

Going Within

The past several weeks are a blur and I have been at loose ends for a number of reasons.  Rather than push myself, I decided to let go and take care of myself.    We all have our ways of processing and for me, it's joining with my emotions at the deepest level and letting myself be.  Eventually I come to terms with the dilemma, come back up for air. and move on.  So here I am.  Is everything in perfect order?  No.  Do I still have things to deal with?  Yes.  I am not, however, stuck in that dark place.  I am painting, listening to my music, seeing my friends, getting ready to go to a warm, sunny place for a month (I can't wait!), seeing my grandchildren and living my life.  I have decisions to make and ideas to process and as long as I keep myself connected and grounded, I will be fine.  The most fun thing that happened is that I got an e-mail from one of the galleries I have my work in telling me that four of my pieces sold.  This really was a clear message that I am on the right track.  Very exciting.  As I just mentioned, I will be away for a month and I am not sure I will be posting.  This was kind of a bucket list thing - to go away for a month during the winter.  It was my husband's suggestion and was quite surprising coming from him, the man who doesn't even like to take a week off from work.  Of course he will work remotely but who cares?  I am taking my paints and am hoping to be able to sit outside in the sunshine and create.  Here is an old piece that I love.  The girl is a transfer, the background is painted.


Thursday, January 12, 2017

Create, Create, Create

 I am making every effort to do something creative each day.  As a friend reminded me, it doesn't have to be a big thing.   Cooking is a creative endeavor as is writing in a journal.  I enjoy finger painting with my grandson.   Not only are we creating a piece of art, but we are also creating connection and memories.  Just one little creative act a day helps me to feel that I have expressed myself in some way and it feels great.  I am not one to make New Years resolutions, yet I think this is one I would like to make and keep.  Actually, last year I resolved to keep this blog up for one year and here I am, still at it.  If I fall off the wagon and get too caught up in other life events, then I will just have to find a way to begin again.  I had a client who really struggled with her weight and she finally was able to stay on a diet and lost weight.  Then she went to a party and overdid it.  When she came in to see me she was so upset with herself and declared that she had blown the diet and all was lost.  No it wasn't.  I told her to just start again and to stop beating herself up.  It's not fair to yourself to think in terms of black and white, either or, all or nothing.  Life happens, we mess up and then we need to forgive ourselves for whatever we think our infractions are and move on.  We need to stop tripping over our "shoulds" (we should do this, be that, etc.) and do what feels good to us inside.