Thursday, July 27, 2017
This has been a time of upheaval and change. We sold our house in Maine and it was quite an ordeal on every level. It's an old house, an 1866 victorian. We put our hearts and souls into this "project". When we bought it, it was in terrible disrepair and we made it our mission to take care of, nourish and update it. We loved this house and poured time, energy and money into it. We enjoyed the process of seeing it evolve and become beautiful once again. However, if you have ever owned an old house, its needs never end and after fourteen years, it was becoming a burden. There was so much more to be done, driving back and forth became exhausting with all the traffic, we wanted to spend weekends with our grandchildren. It was time to let go. This was not easy to do. It was like letting go of a precious love and I cried a lot. We had moving sales and had to let go of what we had brought into our lives. We had to let go of people we had become attached to. I let go of being able to be at the beach all the time. The house has an interesting history. It was built by a wealthy industrialist to house his groomsman and to stable his horse. Harriet Beecher Stowe's son lived in the house for several years and she often visited him here. I would walk up the curved staircase and touch the banister and think that Harriet walked these stairs and touched this banister. My friends lost their experiences here as well. Several came by to say goodbye to the house. For the first few weeks after we sold the Horace Woodman House I was very sad and would picture the new owner walking through the rooms. As time went on, I began to relax and realize that I had more time in my life. I was not spending half the week there, half the week at home. Everything was in one place. I have been enjoying weekends going places I have not been to in years because we were always in Maine. I see my grandchildren on most weekends. I see my friends more. I've also had to let go of a volunteer job that I've loved and so there is a lot of change going on in my life. I've needed down time to recover and I've taken it. Today, I sat down and finished a piece I began many months ago. I'm letting go and moving on. I'm excited about what lies ahead. Another new beginning.
Wednesday, April 5, 2017
It's been quite a while since my last post. I was away for a month and it was spectacular. I was not sure what it would be like to just relax and have no deadlines, no structure, no demands on my time. Well, I have to say, I loved it! My husband loved it too and that was a huge surprise. He is such a workaholic but found he liked to sleep in, read, take our dog for many walks a day, go to the beach and just hang out with me. I did bring my paints and did some work. Then back to reality, which isn't all that bad, just busy again. The first week home I was so disoriented that I really could not fully function. It's nice to just let go and float for a while. It's pleasant to not feel guilty because you are not being productive. It's satisfying to just be. I will admit there were a few times when I was a bit bored but mostly, I just felt free. I still am feeling some of this and have given myself permission to have days to myself to do whatever suits me. I began working on a series of cityscapes just before leaving and have thoroughly enjoyed this new endeavor. They are kind of funky and folk artsy. I am working in different sizes and using many color palettes. Here is one of them:
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
The past several weeks are a blur and I have been at loose ends for a number of reasons. Rather than push myself, I decided to let go and take care of myself. We all have our ways of processing and for me, it's joining with my emotions at the deepest level and letting myself be. Eventually I come to terms with the dilemma, come back up for air. and move on. So here I am. Is everything in perfect order? No. Do I still have things to deal with? Yes. I am not, however, stuck in that dark place. I am painting, listening to my music, seeing my friends, getting ready to go to a warm, sunny place for a month (I can't wait!), seeing my grandchildren and living my life. I have decisions to make and ideas to process and as long as I keep myself connected and grounded, I will be fine. The most fun thing that happened is that I got an e-mail from one of the galleries I have my work in telling me that four of my pieces sold. This really was a clear message that I am on the right track. Very exciting. As I just mentioned, I will be away for a month and I am not sure I will be posting. This was kind of a bucket list thing - to go away for a month during the winter. It was my husband's suggestion and was quite surprising coming from him, the man who doesn't even like to take a week off from work. Of course he will work remotely but who cares? I am taking my paints and am hoping to be able to sit outside in the sunshine and create. Here is an old piece that I love. The girl is a transfer, the background is painted.
Thursday, January 12, 2017
I am making every effort to do something creative each day. As a friend reminded me, it doesn't have to be a big thing. Cooking is a creative endeavor as is writing in a journal. I enjoy finger painting with my grandson. Not only are we creating a piece of art, but we are also creating connection and memories. Just one little creative act a day helps me to feel that I have expressed myself in some way and it feels great. I am not one to make New Years resolutions, yet I think this is one I would like to make and keep. Actually, last year I resolved to keep this blog up for one year and here I am, still at it. If I fall off the wagon and get too caught up in other life events, then I will just have to find a way to begin again. I had a client who really struggled with her weight and she finally was able to stay on a diet and lost weight. Then she went to a party and overdid it. When she came in to see me she was so upset with herself and declared that she had blown the diet and all was lost. No it wasn't. I told her to just start again and to stop beating herself up. It's not fair to yourself to think in terms of black and white, either or, all or nothing. Life happens, we mess up and then we need to forgive ourselves for whatever we think our infractions are and move on. We need to stop tripping over our "shoulds" (we should do this, be that, etc.) and do what feels good to us inside.
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
What a busy few months. I took an art class at the Concord Art Association. It was fun and inspired me to try new things. It's always a challenge to figure out what I am doing in a class, to get my bearings. I am better working in my studio. This class set things in motion and I came home with new ideas and energy each week that I followed through on. I also participated in the Acton Farmer's Market Holiday Fair. I keep telling myself that I am going to take time off and relax. Then I am presented with an opportunity and can't resist taking it on. Today though, I promise to take a nap!!! Here is what I was selling at the fair. Collage boxes and blocks. In the background, what I made as a result of the class, playing with cardboard. Something I've never tried before.
Happy Holidays to all.
Happy Holidays to all.
Friday, November 18, 2016
I had a wonderful Artist Reception on October 28. I am grateful to family and friends who attended. It is a bit overwhelming but great fun to be seen as a working artist. Life presents so many opportunities and if we open to them, we can go on many adventures. This is my newest journey and I am exploring and expanding with each step. I continually challenge myself and it is not always comfortable to do so yet I am impelled to keep moving on. My brain needs to be stimulated and making art brings me to my highest heights. I drink in the colors and patterns and my endorphins go crazy. I may struggle with a piece but when it comes together it is such a wonderful feeling of completion and connection. My next journey is into the world of teaching. I will be running a collage block workshop on Sunday, December 11 at Artists Corner Gallery. Here is the link to the website and pictures of what we will be doing. Keep moving forward and allow yourself to adventure out.
Sunday, October 23, 2016
Open Studios was last weekend and it was an uplifting experience. I had a whole wall filled with my work and it was a bit overwhelming and exciting to see how far I have come. A number of people asked about my process and expressed their desire to get back to their own artwork that got neglected along the way. As I have said many times, it is so easy to get taken over by life and it takes focus and determination to pursue any interest that has meaning for you. Believe me, there are times when I have to push myself into my studio, then once I am there, I am so happy. Though I know some artists who say that they must do something every day, even if its for five minutes. I'm best when I have a deadline, whether self-imposed or external. Next Friday evening I will be hosting a gallery reception at Reasons To Be Cheerful, 110 Commonwealth Avenue, West Concord, 6:30-8:30. Please feel free to drop in for hors d'oeuvres, wine and some colorful work. Here is a photo of my wall: